Every time I walk pass through some places we went together, I remember everything clearly. Where we're sitting, what we ordered, what we're wearing. Okay, too much, I don't really remember what we're wearing, but the most important of all, I remember how it made me feel. I didn't want it to end.
Though it ended.
And for every songs we listened in my car, well, my Dad's car, I remember you. How you react to a certain lyrics, how you showed me a video you love, and how you awkwardly imitating some of the moves from the video. Priceless.
Until now.
And the movies we watched together, there were... three movies I guess. But I can only recall two titles: 'Her', and 'Mr. Peabody and Sherman'. Maybe we only went to the cinema twice, I can't remember. But, the most important thing of all is, I remember it was all with you.
You were amazed by the story line of 'Her'.
You laughed so hard while watching 'Mr. Peabody and Sherman'.
I was happy.
I know I was happy.
Oh, the endless chat we had, you're the reason I smile for every 'ladder' from my phone. I don't mind reading words that I can't understand, since it's taken from your college text book, I like to keep up with the things you love. I love when we trade our schedule, just to inform each other. When you had your exams, when you went to the Church, when you had to deal with your homework, I love to know every details.
Too much details.
And this trip:
It was great, if it's not perfect. To do something for the first time with you, visiting some place new, creating experiences. Once again, I was happy.
But I can't make you stay.
You flew away, in a blink of the eyes, without any warning, and what is left is just me in the dark. I was clueless, had no right to ask you to come back, or stay.
I was wrong to think that we meant to be forever, or last longer than just several months, but there's no regret.
Only unanswered questions.
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